I hate this head space

blackamazon:

I cal it the no sympathy headspace

like I can’t in anyway sympathize with other women’s stories. I feel like an awful person.

But if it’s not a woman of color or poverty there becomes a mental block

It’ll pass

but I can’t get past the

” oh you expected to have safet/money/sympathy/ access /help?”

Why did you expect that?

Who was suppose dot give it to you

Who is supposed to get the treatment you are afraid of?

And it make sme in my own opinion kind of awful.

But I just feel like :

  • You say nothing when your friends use BW as rhetorical devices
  • you say nothing when we get paraded as sexual deviants
  • YOU LOVE EVERY SECOND that us merely being black means you are the prettiest thing in the room

Keep it keep all of it but how fucking dare you EVER in your life come to us and ask FOR ANYTHING?!!

You support with every breath , withe very OH TEHSE poor bITCHES OR THESE MISGUIDED WENCHES

you wring your hands every day

you go after jean companies before you say boo over the people you sit and break bread withe very day because you got a special cookie for not being us 

and literally

my chest closes up

andmy eyes hsutter

and my shoulder shrug

and I hate it

cause eat that moment I know exactly how they go through the world

and it sucks!

:: nods vigorously ::

Source: blackamazon